As I mentioned in my post on Wednesday, Enjoy the Journey has becomes our little family’s motto – adapted from President Thomas S. Monson. In fact we put it up on our door so we can see it every time we walk out. Someday when we have our own house, I’d like to do it in vinyl lettering, but for now it’s printed on a piece of paper. And yesterday we needed that reminder.
Alan applied for a full time job and it seemed so right! It would have been a huge help financially, we would have had great benefits, and it could potentially lead to a good career. It just seemed perfect, but through a series of unfortunate events, he didn’t get the job. I was so disappointed, frustrated, confused, and now everything all of a sudden felt chaotic rather than peaceful. It was a rough night.
So we started making other plans. Plans to finish school quickly and head to a Physical Therapy school that’s not our first choice, but the only one that fits how many classes he’ll have finished. Plans to push forward and move on with life. It was hard and I still wasn’t sure how everything was going to work out, but it seemed to be all we could do.
Alan is a wonderful husband. He sees things that I can’t always see at the time. I was bitter about the situation, but he knew it was going to be fine. Yes this semester is going to be a nightmare, but it’s going to work out. I finally realized that this morning. I just needed to sleep on it.
It started to make a little more sense why now wasn’t the right time. We were able to get Alan’s scholarship money since he’ll be a full time student, he’ll have more time to get some physical therapy volunteer hours in, he’ll get a good chunk of school done, and we’re moving forward. There is a possibility that another job will open up in December or April and there is also the possibility that we won’t live in Utah next summer. Lots of different paths in front of us! And now it’s kind of exciting to see what’s going to happen.
Sometimes we think we know what’s best for our family, but then things don’t work out. It’s hard and frustrating, but we can’t see the bigger picture. And of course, the bigger picture is going to be even better! Sometimes it’s a struggle to get there and sometimes it seems like there’s no way things are going to work, but it does! My friend Camille put this quote on facebook yesterday that I love.
“Our Father’s commitment to us, His children, is unwavering. Indeed He softens the winters of our lives, but He also brighten our summers. Whether it is the best of times or the worst, He is with us. He has promised us that this will never change.” -President Monson
I know God has not forgotten us and He will watch over for us. As long as we are faithful and follow His commandments, everything will work out for good. I just need to look at the bigger picture.