While I was thinking this weekend about how I did for exercising this week, I felt pretty good about it. And I was thinking about body image and how hard it can be for a woman to love her own body no matter the shape or pant size.
Growing up I always felt like I could lose more weight. The only time I ever felt like I was just right was when I was in the middle of water polo season – I was toned and working out like crazy (3 hour practices every day) and could eat whatever I wanted and didn’t gain a pound. A lot of my friends were really thin and since middle school I have been very curvy. That’s just my body type. I look back at high school pictures and think – wow I looked great! Why didn’t I think that?
I felt good about my size when I got married. I think especially because my husband always complemented me on how good I looked. He liked that I had a curvy figure! That’s his favorite! And I believe him. 🙂
Then I got pregnant, gained 44 pounds, and had my baby. I was so afraid I wasn’t going to lose the baby weight because it was so hard for me to lose weight. I got frustrated easily after she was born because I still couldn’t fit in my regular clothes when my daughter was 3 months old! Then finally after exercising, eating the right amount of calories, and nursing, I lost all my baby weight when my daughter was 7 months old. Sure I don’t look exactly the same – um my hips widened and my stomach expanded to fit an 8 pound child, of course it won’t be the same – but I like where I am. I fit in all my clothes and I feel and look good!
I still feel athletic, I can run around, I can snuggle next to my hubby. I’ve always been an average weight and size. I don’t think I’ve ever been a size 2 – I skipped that going from juniors to misses somehow…But I think now I’m finally OK with that! I’m a mom. I have a mom body – curvy. And I feel good!
So I don’t want to work on losing weight, I want to work on being healthy so I can have more energy and know I’m eating good things. Also so I can have good habits for my kids as they get older and start making food choices. My goal is to be healthy!
And with the holidays coming up, all I want to do is eat heavy foods! Breads, pastas, sweets, carbs, carbs, carbs. So I’m going to start looking for some healthier recipes.
And as for my exercising this week, I did pretty good! I exercised 4 out of 6 days (Sundays I always rest). I did some Boot Camp, Yoga, and played volleyball. I was pretty sore after Boot Camp, but the second time went a lot better. It feels great to exercise again!